My Love/Hate Relationship with the Gym

Ever since elementary school, I’ve been a bigger girl. First, I felt like I had baby fat & then middle school, I was the chubby girl. I mean, I guess that’s when I started to feel super self conscious because that’s when people I didn’t know started to make fun of me.

Flash forward to now, I’m still a bigger girl. I’m definitely still self conscious, but I’ve embraced me and instead of feeling shitty about myself when people judge me about my weight, i’m mostly annoyed with those people.

Now the gym is great, if you utilize it. I used to have a subscription to LA Fitness. I hardly went and I hated going in there because it made me feel super self conscious. I hardly saw anyone my size & I never felt like I could keep up with the people that were there. It was intimidating. 

Because the gym started to scare me, I tried finding other things to do. I tried walking around Miramar Lake. That got boring. I got into watching YouTube fitness videos. Those were fun, but I soon got tired of that. And I don’t really have room in my new place to dance around.

So then came a new gym membership at Anytime Fitness last October. I was super hesitant because of my experience at LA Fitness and the 1 year commitment I had to make. I have commitment issues. But I did because two of my coworkers had memberships and they enjoyed it there.

The first month or so, I went. Then I went on vacation for a month. They actually had an Anytime Fitness in the Philippines, but I didn’t go because it was nowhere near me and well, I was on vacation.

When I came back from the Philippines, I went a few times, but in March I fell and hit my head. The doctor said no shaking, and I agreed.

Since April, I’ve only been to the gym once. It’s definitely less intimidating, but it’s just so hard to get in that mindset and I get bored easily doing the same thing. I definitely need to change up my routine. Does anyone have suggestions?



2 thoughts on “My Love/Hate Relationship with the Gym

  1. A.K.

    Working out definitely works best when you figure out what works for you. I try to do weightlifting three times per week and cardio two or three times. When the gym won’t work out for one reason or another, I try to go hiking or do some other kind of active activity I enjoy.

    When I do go to the gym, I don’t even look at people. I put on my earphones and just do my thing. Although I’m not where I want to be yet, just the fact that I work out somewhat regularly makes me feel better about myself. So the best advice I have is keep going. Don’t think of it as a task, but rather something else in the day you have to do like work/school or brushing your teeth.

    Good luck!

  2. beth

    My biggest advice would be to find people to workout with, or find classes where you can meet new people who have the same goals as you. Most gyms offer free classes with their memberships and a lot of them are tiered into beginner intermediate and advanced.
    Don’t get put down what other people are doing in the gym, or that you cant keep up. Everyone has to start somewhere and I’m sure the majority of the people around you were in a similar position when they first started.
    Don’t give up, think about how great you’ll feel about yourself if you stick at it 🙂 xx


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